Saturday, July 17, 2010


Continuation of having Bipolar

I started hearing voices in the year of 2007. At first I thought it was the neighbors talking. We lived in a duplex. Each night the voices became louder and scarier. My husband did not hear what I heard. The voices (I like to call them auditory hallucinations because voices are from people) would say some of these phrases"we are not voices, we are spirits"; "you are psychic";"your neighbors are watching you"; your neighbors are brain washing you"; "people can read your mind".

At first I did not believe any of these phrases. However each day I would hear them and withdraw to my own little world. The voices/hallucinations became my friends. I would have conversations with them. I was in acute psychosis. I wasn't able to sleep due to the voices/hallucinations. I became sleep deprived which made them louder. Some days were so bad I had suicidale thoughts.  Even to this day, if I am sleep deprived or with medication tweaks, I would hear the voices/mumbles/hallucinations.

Anyone out there hear voices/hallucinations? Sometimes, I would hear the voices through machines(fans, computer fans, car A/C's, house A/C's, washer and dryer machines and fans in the bathrooms,etc) Once I turned the fans off the voices/hallucinations would go away.

hugs and strength to you all


  1. Sometimes it seems like something has tapped me on the shoulder but then nothing is there. I hear my name called out every once in a while, and when ever there is a pattern on wall paper or anything like that I can always make a face out of it.
    Hope you have a great weekend. :-)

  2. I usually hear them when extremely tired and trying to sleep or when there are other loud motors like fans, etc. The voices are in the background, like being in a crowded resturant. The one that always startles me the most is when I'm vacuuming, I swear someone is shouting at me trying to get my attention. That hasn't happened in a while though. It used to scare me, but it doesn't bother me anymore, because they weren't all bad voices. Some are heavenly. Hugs.

  3. Hi Emelia. I've never experienced hallucinations to date, though I've been psychotic once from sleep deprivation as you say. It's not nice!

    Anyway, I've started another blog and closed my old one for good. So drop by when you have time.