Friday, March 26, 2010

Rollar Coaster Ride

aContinuation of having bipolar

It's 5:45 am and I feel as if I could run a marothon. There is a 7am fitness class at my gym and I will attend. However, I never know when I will crash. I compare my highs to a rollar coaster. The anticipation of waiting for the ride. You finally get your turn and the ride begins and then ends in 3 minutes.

I am trying to reprogram my brain to think rational, but somedays it is difficult. I have not worked in three years as some of you all know and my brain wants to work again but my body tells me something different. "Rome was not built in a day" a friend of mine said. I really dislike that phrase. Another phrase I hear is "one step at a time" or "take it slow". Those are great phrases to follow and I do need to look at where I was before and where I am now. We all need to do that, even if it is the smallest step, be proud of that.


  1. I admire you for being at a fitness class so early. I was taking my son to town today and at 10am his phone alarm went off. " oh" he said, "when I'm at university this is my get up alarm." The best part of the day has gone by this time!!

    The description of your life sometimes being like a roller coaster is so true. If only you could find the brake and hold it on the high part! Love & light. Mart.

  2. Almost forgot to tell you, I like the new look!!

  3. Roller coasters used to be my favorite rides. I loved the thrill of going up, down, around and upside down. But the best part was I was able to get off the ride and deicide when I wanted to go on it again. Unfortunetly sometimes it seems we don't know when the ride is ever going to end or if we will ever be about to get off this crazy thing! I feel what you are saying. Don't be too hard on yourself. I hate this saying, but I'm going to tell you cause I need to hear it're right where your suppose to be. HUGS and Peace.

  4. A 7am fitness class is beyond me! It's great that you are up for it! Enjoy!! And remember, the roller coaster is the most exciting ride in the park...((Hugs))

  5. 7;00 for fitness , that is the last thing on my mind at that time. It is great that you know the signs and my therapist always said if you excerise not just your mind but your body you will feel better....