Monday, February 22, 2010

Voices/hallucinations,and I

As we all know I was diagnosed in 2007 as having Bipolar with auditory hallucinations/voices. Currently I do not hear the voices/hallucinations. I am stable and the medication is leveling my moods. I am more on the depressed side.

There was a point in time when I just had to laugh at the voices/hallucinations. I hope I do not offend anyone as I know the voices/hallucinations can be tormenting, and can try to take over your thinking process. My voices would commnet on my actions, tell me what to do and sometimes just be cruel repeatively.

As a christian I believed I would not be where I am today. Praying to the Lord kept me mentally strong. I had to pray outloud as the voices would repeat the prayers in my head like an echo.

Well, getting back to laughing at my voices. The psychiatrist could not find the right medication at that time to help, so I prayed for strength and humor helped. "so what should we have for dinner tonight" I would say to the voices/hallucinations. "am I wearing to much makeup" also speaking to the voices. Sarcasm helped me with the voices/hallucinations.

As you all thinking "did they speak back" well of course they did. I just know in my heart the Lord again kept me sane. I voulunteerd, and rode my bike having those voices in my head. I noticed if I redirected myself I did not hear them as much.

A few tips that helped me was ignoring them and keeping busy which also eliminated them for a few hours. I usually would speak to them when I was frustraed and uesd my sarcastic humor. Everyone that has them deals with them differently.

Humor about my disorder helps and the Lords strength.
"My grace is sufficienet for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness"(2Corinthians 12:9)


© 2010-M.M.

4 comments:

  1. just read from saturday...humor is very important and I am glad you are trying to maintain that. Running, gosh you ran marathons, how great is that. This might be a dumb question but why cant you run anymore. Would it not make you feel better.

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  2. Actually Lee, I have a bad back. I am into yoga. I have another disorder Fibromyalgia (chronic pain and muscle disorder) that I did not talk about yet. I laugh cause my list is long ;)

    Thank you for reading my blog

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  3. You have a great attitude. I have had this for over 20 years, and your wisdom in such a short amount of time is wonderful. You have great strength and courage to write about this illness, too. You go girl!

    Keep up the good work.

    Thank you,

    Stephanie J. Golden, B.S.W., M.S.R.C.

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  4. Thank you so much Stephanie for that lovely compliment.

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